sungguh aku x sangka yang aku sekarang sangat rindu cuti aku, how i wish that i used my time dengan penuh semangat, ikhlas, no marah2. how i wish ill have longer holiday,,,hurm...
my holiday start when i start helping my mum berniaga kat kursus fiqh wanita n kat alam sentral. how bored it is... but ive promised mak that ill help her. bak kata najib, "janji ditepati!" hahaha. nothing much fun thing happen, just i bought zumba disk! dance + exercise;p hahaha. n now tertinggal kat rumah. ;(
thn ayah g indon for a longggggggggg day! which make me lazy, mula dgn perangai dulu.. how i feel my dad doesnt love or ingat pun kat aku.. so sad!!!;'(
then, pergi genting n wetworld, which unexpected nak pergi.. sbab x jadi g langkawi... maybe its my fault.. coz aku yg cakap xyah g... but the thing is time. n unplanned well. but whatever it is, dpat sama2 dgn lem n bon which make me happy=D after tu ada la kuar g jeram toi, air terjun, g pd 4 makan n g alamanda untuk karoke dgn angah, ayep, n my sis, neeysa.1st time g jauh kami berempat! =D ada kuar dgn hani, scya, n keena *terlupa neeysa n jack* yg memang unexpected! n we eat, chatting teman kinah shopping;) hurm tu je kot aku kuar dgn kawan...eh2, ada2 dgn lem sahaja, bawak neeysa n kawan dia,wani g ou 4 karok where ku tertinggal spec kat food court. *weee~~~ spec baru in purple*
my last week in klang.. almost everyday kuar... n the sad thing is gaduh dgn mak,,, pasal ape tah.. dah la time tu nak balik.. ha!time hari khamis, sedihhhh sangat!!!! supposely aku balik hari jumaat, tapi disebabkan hal tertentu aku balik hari isnin. pastu time gaduh mak cakap, "baik pergi balik sana!!!" yang buat aku rasa sedih sangat, n lagi satu "nanti, bila dah sedar tu mula la nak minta maaf, x guna minta maaf banyak kali.." aku tau aku kurang ajar, but.... when aku marah, its uncontrolled! sorry mak,, till now aku x minta maaf, even dah balik sarawak, bukan aku xnak... tapi.. ayat tu... buat aku rasa susah.. :'( aku tau aku x patut.. tapi.... sorry.
the most saddest part is, last nite. i thought my brother, jack n neeysa g school,,, sekali terbangun lambat so x jadi pergi. Nak dipendekkan cerita, selepas balik rumah beli kasut sume dgn neeysa, aku g bilik adol@jack..memang macam rutin la... g sana tgk adik tgh buat homework sambil dimarahi n diajari oleh mak...then suddenly disebabkan terlalu hilang sabar,, mak pun pukul la jack, yang buat aku rasa sedih n aku terus cakap, "ishh, makkkk..." hurm,,, aku tgk adol terkebil2, so selepas mak berang n nak g kedai malam tu, aku pun ajar la adik aku sampai siap homework, so we have private talk, bila semua org xde kat bilik, neeysa dalam toilet.
"adik, nanti atey xde, jangan buat kerja last minute, buat homework awal, jangan main game je, tgk upin ipin, jangan bagi mak pukul adik..." sambil tu aku gosok kening dia, sebab time tu dia berkerut.. then tetiba time dia tgh pejam mata, otw nak tdo tu dia mengalirkan air mata dia... aku terkejut.. ingat kan air mata menganntuk ke apa.. pastu aku caka la"adik, jangan nangis.." sekali dia mulut dia cembing macam nak nangis.. terus tersedu2, tapi xde suara.. atlast aku pun nangis sama...
whenever i go far.. the hardest thing for me to left is my brother, abdul razzaq, walau sekurang asam nya dia kat aku.. but he is the most that i love. bukan nak cakap x sayang parents... tapi.. the person that i worried when i left is adol. he is not capable nak buat benda simple yang kita boleh buat, he will not be able to fight back like how we do to him. i worried bila mak marah dia, neeysa marah dia,,, how i wish he is here with me now...
now here i am in sarawak unimas.. apa la dorg tengah buat.. rindu nyaaaaa kat sana.. Ya, Allah, aku tau cuti ni aku x sembahyang sangat pun,, aku pemalas,aku alpa. tapi sekarang aku rindu sangat... :'( tolong aku...
now dah nak maghrib. mak im sorry. hoe next holiday ill be better daughter to you =) n athirah rahman aim study2! bak kata ayah dean list! lots of love to those i missed alot!!!!!
p/s: sorry malas nak letak gambar.. hahaha =D
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