what is life?

As i grow up, growing older, live far away from home. i starting to realize a lot of thing, going through lots of different situation which i barely cant stand it. like now.im so stress. 
i need my friend.. but icant make a call.. coz... cafe kat bawah tu topup dia dah habis!! urghhhh!! #hahahaha, bertambah tesion la jadi nye
  
seeing lots of people, trying to socialize with them...im so scared to go through my life.. #im not hoping that im dead!im just scared!!! Human are just monster! arghhhh.. 

i dont want to lose my friend, but you make me choose that i need to lose you! when i said best of luck in your life ahead, i REALYY, TRULY! MEANT IT LA IDIOT!! amekkaaawwww!!! ahahaha.. HELL LA WEYH??? WTF!!!! YOU DONT EVENT APPRECIATE IT??? HELL LA WEYH BACK TO YOU LA GILERRRRR!!!! AKUUUU BENCI KAUUUU!!!!! i wish i can say those word... ireally2 wanna lose you! HYPOCRITE GAL LIKE YOU, SHOULD NOT HAVE FRIENDS AT ALL!!!! 

now, today 20.12.2012, i realize that not all human are kind. not all can be a friend. not all friends can i trust even your roomates. they will only u give a shiiitttttt! when u find ur truly friend, your best friend, u should not lose them, hold them.coz true friend are really hard to find... hope that, my schoolmates especially lem, hani, fatin n niah. i really miss my schoolmates, they're just AWESOME! no one cant replace them. I MEANT IT! hahahaha:D 

at the end, i still confuse... what is life? macam mana aku nak tempuhi hidup if aku x faham apa tu kehidupan? macam ni ke dunia? yes, im 100% agree that dunia sebenar sugguh kejam!